I stopped making excuses and started pushing myself. Starting the Challenge in Sept was the beginning of a forever change. I started to see myself as strong. STRONG….. that was never a word I would ever use to describe myself until now.
I have spent the last 8 years being told you CAN’T…… can’t lose weight, can’t exercise, can’t be healthy and most importantly can’t survive. I finally decide that I can and I would. Against must skeptics (including my Dr. and family that said I would never be able to do it), I joined FitMania “hoping” to start exercising one to two times a week. I set a goal for myself to just get there and just do what I could. I made sure everyone knew that I would be very limited in what I could do and was only there to “keep moving”. A few weeks in, everything changed. I was no longer satisfied with one or two times a week and only doing what I thought I could. I wanted and needed to do better. I stopped making excuses and started pushing myself. Pushing myself to do more and believe that I was strong enough to do it.
Starting the Challenge in Sept was the beginning of a forever change. Change in attitude, change in lifestyle and change in what I was going to allow someone else to control. No longer would I allow a Dr. or medical professional to set a time frame on my life. I am in control and will be the one to control my health. I focused on showing up five times a week, eating better and giving it my all every workout. I stopped beating myself up over the little things and took each small accomplishment as a step towards a better me. Small victory’s started adding up. I began looking forward to working out and even felt frustrated when I had to miss a workout. I began to look for ways to get in more exercise, especially times that I could get the whole family to join in. I started to see myself as strong. STRONG….. that was never a word I would ever use to describe myself until now. As we end the challenge my focus is this. The challenge is ending but I am not. I will continue to show up, continue to work hard, continue to fight for me and remove the word CANT from my vocabulary.